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Thurday, July 17th, 2008 @ 10:04am
Ya ever have thise tomes when everything just seems to go wrong?
Well yeah, that's been my summer so far and it's not going to get any better any time soon.
Well, if you read my last journal, this would make a lot more sense.
So, my grandfather died May 28th and now my grandmother is in the hospital and she probably won't make it.
How freaking typical is that? -_-
So, my sumemr is pretty much screwed.
On the other hanbd, my friend who's been some thing for collage will be getting home Friday.
And of course, she'll also be leaving Friday to go to Chicago nd be back sometime on Tuesday.
Then her birthday is on July 16th. Funny huh? My birthday is April 16th she her's is July 16th. Small world huh? lol
So, I still have to get/make her a gift. What fun. *sigh*
Then, I really want to enter a friend's contest contest. Which ends in 4 days - on the 14th.
I highly doubt I'll finish in time.
Maybe I'll take advantage of the time my friend is gone and work on it then.
Of course, with my luck something will come up and it won't get done. Then I'll end up turnning it in at the very last minute - litterally.
Like I said, nothing working out this summer.
All my plans have been completely screwed up.
And then school! >.<
I keep trying to bring it up with my mom but she keeps pushing it off.
I mena, i have like no idea what school i'm going to this year.
Homeschooled again? A public school? A good highschool?
I really wanna go to an actual school. i don't wanna be homeschooled again this year.
But of course, that's probably what'll end up happenning.
That's how it's worked for the past 3 no, 4 years.
Typical isn't it?
Homeschooling has somehow become a regular thing here.
I also have to start thinking about college.
I really wanna go to the same college as my friend; Andy.
Buyt note, she lives in GA and I live in MD (USA).
So we live in two totally differant states.
I'm assuming she wants to go to a college in GA but I wanna go to one in FL.
I also need to get into one I can afford - which is gonna be really hard.
I won't be able to get a full scholarship because they look for people with good grades. Hate to say it, but may greats are a bad as they get. <.<
These are seriously the days I wish I could see into the future just to know how things would work out.
Oh! Did I mention that I have like 3/4th's of the house to clean?
Have you seen our house?
It's like a total disaster. -_-
So yeah, i have like no free time.
Anyone wanna donate me a few bucks so I can try and get someone over here to help me?
Please? *begs*
Thurday, July 17th, 2008 @ 9:59am
I swear, everytime I turn around something just seems to get worse.
I honestly can't handle anymore of this crap.
My relatives, my friends, my entire life is just one big huge disaster.
My grandfather died recently as you all know - I'm sure.
Well we had his funural a while ago. His barial will be next Wed.
During this he left behind his wife; my grandmother. Sadly she can't take care of herself seeing as how she's never lived alone before. So all the family members on my mother's side have to help take care of her since my Aunt Kerry doesn't wanna help pay to put her into a nursing home.
My grandmother needs to be watched over almost 24 hours a day 7 days a week.
I love my grandmother really I do.
But now everyone is tkaing turns watching her ALL day for a week at a time. We don't have any room for her to sleep here or for her to even be here. And honestly, I don't want her here. It's my house.
I don't mind her visiting, but being here ALL day for a week! O_O
Then I have a ton of work to do. i have to clean up all my crap everywhere.
We might get kicked out of our house come August 1st because we can't pay the morgage. My dad is suppose to be paying for that but he hasn't been and we don't have the money to do that.
You see, my mom and dad are separated (never got married though; thank god).
My dad's gotten married 2 times since he separated with my mom back when I was 6 or 7.
My dad doesn't pay child support and never has. But he used to at least fix the vihicals, pay the cell phone bills, and some of the house payments.
Now he doesn't pay for anything. Ever since he got married to Sharly to whom I hate.
Now my mom to whom is retired (she's 52) can't pay all the bills and stuff so it's one big mess.
Then with my grandfather dying that just makes this so much harder.
The reminder of getting kicked out of our house in one month is a huge bother as well.
Then there's all the cleanning that'll have to be done.
Where re we going to live? What about everything we own?
Then grandma coming here to stay for a week.
It feels like someone's really out to get me. That's all I can tell you really.
I wish my mother could read minds. I don't know how to tell her I can't take anymore. I can't even fall asleep at night anymore.
I'm stressed out about things a 15 year old shouldn't have to worry about and my mother either doesn't see it or doesn't care.
If anyone knows a way to make this better or some advice o something. It would really help me out...
